Friday, September 12, 2008

Why me???

It has taken me a long time to talk about this to anyone other than family and close friends, but I had a miscarriage on July 15, 2008. One of the WORST days of my entire life. We went in for my three month check-up and they could not find the heart beat. We were devistated. You just think this kind of thing won't happen to you. It was never even thought of. It has been 2 months and not a day goes by that I don't think about that day. People say time heals all pain...that is NOT true. Time just lessens the pain. The first couple weeks were the hardest; you wonder why, you feel like a failure, we had started telling people, Colter wanted a baby sister, friends and family were having babies and we were ready to add to our family, but ALL things happen for a reason. We may never know or understand why this happened to us, but Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and what may be our plan is not his. I want to thank my family for their love and support especially my "Bodaget" sister. She helped me more than she'll ever know! Thank you Amy. And Darin, let's just say I definately remember why i married you, Thank you sweetie, I LOVE YOU!!! OXOXO.
Things are going good for us and we count our blessings every single day. We are thankful for who and what we have in our lives. I believe that someday we will be blessed again with a little spirit that needs us!